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I see in Fight Club the strongest and smartest men who ever lived. I see all this potential and I see it squandered. Goddamnit an entire generation! Pumping gas and waiting tables, the slaves with white collars. Advertising has its taste in cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. We're the middle-children of history, man. No purpose or place; we have no great war, no great depression. Our great war is a spiritual war - our great depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires and movie gods and rock stars, but we won't. We're slowly learning that fact, and we're very, very pissed off.

"If you wanna sing out, sing out." ~Cat Stevens

"Its suppossed to be hard; if it wasn't, everyone would do it: it's the hard that makes it great." ~A League of Their Own

"No, the opposite of love is indifference."

"I have great faith in fools-- my friends call it self-confidence." ~Edgar Allen Poe

"As long as you laugh at yourself you will never cease to be amused."

"Beware the fury of a patient man" ~John Dryen

"When they discover the center of the Universe, a lot of people will be dissapointed to discover they aren't it."

"To be nobody but yourself in a world that is doing it's best to make you somebody else, is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting." ~E.E. Cummings

"The reasonable man adapts himself to the world; the unreasonable one persists in trying to adapt the world to himself. Therefore, all progress depends on the unreasonable man." ~George Bernard Shaw

"Always another wonder to ponder." ~Winnie the Pooh

"Music is not the technique and melody, but the meaning of life itself, infinitely sorrowful and unbearably beautiful." ~Pearl S. Buck

"Evil has only the power we give it." ~Ray Bradbury

"Yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run there is still time to change the one you are on." ~Led Zeppelin

"There are things known and things unknown and in between are The Doors." ~Jim Morrison

"Do or do not, there is no try." ~Yoda

"Say goodbye to the oldies but goodies, cause the good old days aren't always good, and tomorrow aint as bad as it seems." ~Billy Joel

"I need no warrant for being and no word of sanction upon my being. I am the warrant and the sanction." ~Ayn Rand

1 - see Uptown Girls
2 - buy textbooks
3 - sort college stuff
4 - start classes
5 - read Sex, Drugs, and Cocoa Puffs
6 - organize dorm
7 - learn to make coffee
8 - have crazy sex
9 - get drunk
10 - kill amy
11 - watch Two Towers
12 - learn circular knitting
13 - knit Kelly's scarf
14 - read Perk of Being A Wallflower
15 - organize books
16 - read The Dragon Reborn
17 - get Options Abroad Session
18 - fix TV/VCR/DVD Player

"Peace isn't achieved through violence" ~Albert Einstein

"If the sun comes up tomorrow, it is only because of men of good will. That is all there is between us and the Devil" ~Kenny O'Donnell

"Let us celebrate by adding chocolate to milk." ~Homer Simpson

"Life moves pretty fast, if you don't stop and look around once in a while, you may miss it." ~Ferris Bueller

"There are plenty more fish in the sea... But you must go a long, long way to find an angel fish." ~Salmon Rushdie, Haroun and the Sea of Stories

"Living in the sunlight all the time, they wish to see the stars." ~Salmon Rushdie, Haroun and the Sea of Stories

"This is your life and it's ending one minute at a time." ~Fight Club

"For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin --- real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way. Something to be got through first, some unfinished business, time still to be seved, a debt to be payed. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life." ~Fr. Alfred D'Souza

"I have to go to college --- Why?!?!? ---- Because that's what you do after high school!" ~Orange County

"Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn." ~Rhett Butler Gone With the Wind

"Hey, how come he gets to get up? If he gets up, we'll all get up, it'll be anarchy!" ~Bender The Breakfast Club

"Know theyself? If I knew myself I'd run away." ~Johann Wolfgang con Goethe

"A friend is someone who knows all about you and likes you just the same."

"It's never too late to be what you might have been."

"Sharing a life is sharing steps in time, the music is different to each of us, but how beautiful the dance."

"You say you want a revolution, well you know, we all want to change the world." ~The Beatles

Alien: You're an interesting species, and interesting mix. You're capable of such beautiful dreams, and such horrible nightmares. You feel so lost, so cut off, so alone, only you're not. See, in all our searching, the only think we've found that makes the emptiness bearable is each other.

"Sweet memories are woven from good times."

"I'll lean on you, and you'll lean on me, and we'll be okay." ~Dave Matthews Band

"I will remember you, will you remember me? Don't let you're life pass you by, weep not for the memories." ~Sarah McLachlan

"Who's more foolish, the fool or the fool who follows him?" ~Star Wars, ObiWan

"Dreams are true while they last, and do we not live in our dreams?" ~Alfred Lord Tennyson

"Things do not change, we change." ~Thoreau

"It would be an awful waste of space if there weren't other forms of life." ~Cookiemonster

"After all there is but one race: humanity." ~George Moore

"For long you live and high you fly, and smiles you'll give and tears you'll cry, and all you touch and all you see, is all your life will ever be." ~Pink Floyd

"We are agreed your ideas are crazy. What we have yet to determine is if your ideas are crazy enough to be true."

"I could die for you. But I couldn't and wouldn't live for you." ~Howard Roark, The Fountainhead

"The greatest man I never knew, lived just down the hall." ~Reba McEntire

Saturday, November 30, 2002
Fox 97 is playing Christmas songs! I'm in heaven, oldies and Christmas songs.

I love Christmas. I don't really know why but it's just so fun and happy (I'm so descriptive aren't I?). I just keep thinking about all the songs and hot coco and gifts and stuff! Yay! It needs to come quicker.

(singing) It's the most wonderful time of the year!!!!!
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Thursday, November 28, 2002
don't you hate it when people you really like come to you for advice on the girl they like? i'm gonna shoot myself one of these days
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Happy Turkey Day! I love thanksgiving except the mormons took over my house today. It was like everywhere i looked one was standing there. Plus they were eating all our food. ): I was gonna hurt someone but then they left. And so now I'm happy with my turkey and mashed potatos. yay!
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Wednesday, November 27, 2002
Will people ever learn? It's sad to think that it takes the death of a peer to teach some people not to do stupid things and risk their lives for some fun. While I didn't know Ashley Carter, it makes me mad that people take their life so lightly. How could someone do something so stupid? You'd think after Matt Bonds died last year people would start to be more careful and thankful for just being able to breathe, but no. And now will Ashley's death mean anything? (From Ashleigh's blog I'm assuming she's not going to survive). Maybe for a little while people will change the way they act and stupid things they do --- but I doubt it will last. People will go on playing with their life just to get a high. God I can't believe people would be so stupid!
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Tuesday, November 26, 2002
It sucks to be lonely. Every day it seems someone new has found someone they care about. Everywhere I look I see another couple entralled with each other, and I can help but be jealous. I just had a long conversation with a friend about this and in the process of trying to cheer him up I became more hopeless. It's like you can only be so happy without that someone there. And it just seems so hopeless. You have people tell you that you will find someone, but it never seems to happen. All you can do is wait. You're never fully happy because there is always that hole. God it sucks.
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"Mommy, do you want my STDs" ~My little sis
"Kerry, have you had you daily does of STDs" ~My dad
"She said it'd be worse than sucking dick if I didn't come" ~My older sis to my mom

All of these occured at our nice sit down family dinner.
Yea, I think my family is a little our there.
And the night isn't even over yet...
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Can you believe we have a 5 day weekend! I'm so exicited because for once I don't have school or a debate tournament for 5 whole days. wow. I know I'll end up spending most the time working on debate- I feel I have to make up for the embarressing job at the latest tournament. Yes so besides the debate work and catching up on all the application work I've been slacking off with I might have some free times of own. Wouldn't that be great. I'm gonna have time to watch the new Lord of the Rings and maybe even go see a movie. Wouldn't that be amazing! The whole concept of free time is pretty shocking to be. I'm thinking I might even manage reading Dune as Kelly has sold it to me as an amazing book. But then I've got the outside reading for wade to do. I don't know.
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Tuesday, November 19, 2002
Today was suppossed to be great. It's my birthday. In my family for everyone's birthday, my mom wakes up early and makes our favorite breakfast. Being prepared to wake up to the smell of bacon and eggs I couldn't wait until I heard my alarm beeping for me to wake up. Instead I woke to my sister screaming that I needed to wake up and we were late. Sure enough the clock read 7:45. As I got downstairs I realized there was no birthday breakfast for me. That just started one of the worst days I've had for a while. School was normal, the day didn't turn for the worst until I got home. You have to understand that birthdays are a real big thing in my family. We always have the dining room all decorated and have a big sit down dinner with cake and presents afterwards. But, I come home to find my mom saying my dad thought he should get into Pasadena earlier today so he got a earlier plane and had already left. She finished by sqeezing in a little Happy Birthday. No decorations to be seen. I was hurt a little that my dad thought getting a few more hours of sleep was more important than seeing me on my birthday, but if he thought it was important to get there earlier I wasn't going to say anything. I was still fine. Then I realized Gilly wasn't home, my mom informed me that she was over at her friends Chris' house and would be the rest of the night. So she thought getting stoned with her friends was more important than my birthday. And it only got worse from there. Kerry decided she didn't want to miss Karioke night at the bar she works at (even though it happens every Tuesday). Brad had a date scheduled and couldn't believe I expected him to drop his plans for a "sentimental birthday." Now maybe I'm being selfish and a drama queen but you'd think I'd get something from my family on my last birthday at home. I didn't expect any gifts- they were paying my car payment this month. But was it too much to ask for our regular sit down family dinner? Or even a little card? Something. I guess I expect too much out of my family.
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Monday, November 18, 2002
"Those who resist or rebel against a form of power cannot merely be content to denounce violence or criticize and institution. Nor is it enough to case the blame on reason in general. What has to be questioned is the form of rationality at stake. The criticism of power wielded over the mentally sick or mad connot be restucted to psychiatric institutionns; nor can those questioning the power to punish be content with denouncing prisons as total institutions. The question is: how are such relations of power rationalized? Asking it is the only way to avoid other institutions, which the same objectives and the same effects, from taking their stead."
~Michel Foucault

Wow. I love this guy.
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Michel Foucault is my new god. For any of you who don't know, he is a French philosopher that talks about practically anything. Anyway, I've read 6 of his books for debate and I just started my 7th and I now worship him. This book is amazing and everyone should read it even if you aren't a debate freak like me. The book is Politics, philosophy, and culture for anyone who cares. Yea, so the reason he has replaced Kelly as my god is because I was reading a part of the book on the constructions of sexualities by gay rights activist and it was just amazing. He talks about how the whole idea of someone being gay is the reason they are oppressed and "normalized". Basically when you name someone as being gay it becomes their identity. They are no longer Joe Bob but the gay guy. When that label and separation occurs the basis for normalization is created. Once the person has been defined by their differences, they can be forced to become the typical "gay guy" and therefor are able to be oppressed by being forced into that category. From this he concluded that gay rights activist are making the situation worse by defining people as gays and trying to improve that categories rights. Basically "gendered oppression is allowed only if gender categories exist.(172)" Wow. I've read this stuff before mainly by Judith Butler and even by Foucault in other places but it has never been set forth so clearly. It's like I have finally found cards that I can use in debate rounds that judges will understand when they read them. Once again Foucault is by god. Sorry Kelly.
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Poke the Pengiun
Everyone must go here.. I almost fell out of my chair laughing. Literally. I was halfway to the floor but fell on my dog instead. I don't think she enjoyed it much. Anyway, it amazes me how poking a little penguin could be so fun. I guess after spending 4 hours today reading another Foucault book it was a bit of a relief from very confusing philosophy. Oh the simple things. Everyone must go.
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I saw Harry Potter this weekend and it rocked. I was so worried the spider scene would be horrible and look fake but it was so real looking. I was impressed. This week has just been awesome movie wise. First I see Harry Potter and today after school I'm getting the Lord of the Rings special edition DVD. I can't wait to go see it. More of hobbiton would be amazing! And then tomorrow my sister is giving me the collector's edition of E.T. for my B-Day. I'm just in movie heaven.
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Kelly's my God...she's awesome...GO KELLY!!!!
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Wednesday, November 13, 2002
I finally got my blog in working order. You must realize that I am most definately not a computer genius...in fact I wanted to shoot my computer many times while trying to start this blog. But with the wonderful help of Kelly and Bethany it is here. Thank god. All I have left to do is try and get the damn comments to work. They just don't like me or something. I guess that's it. Well now I'm off to find a better color scheme (yellow only appealed to me for about 10 minutes) and try and not kill the comments button cuz it just won't work. Grrr. Ahhh. I'm gonna shoot someone...beware...
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are the comments there now??
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This is a blog in process....working on the colors and template and such right now....current problem is getting the comments....so i hope they are there now
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