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Links RAM Resurrected Every Day I Write the Book Greetings From the Verge of Daylight Boy from Illinois Life The Spike Times Have Changed Marla's LJ p ? Atlanta Blogs # n Archives I see in Fight Club the strongest and smartest men who ever lived. I see all this potential and I see it squandered. Goddamnit an entire generation! Pumping gas and waiting tables, the slaves with white collars. Advertising has its taste in cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. We're the middle-children of history, man. No purpose or place; we have no great war, no great depression. Our great war is a spiritual war - our great depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires and movie gods and rock stars, but we won't. We're slowly learning that fact, and we're very, very pissed off. "If you wanna sing out, sing out." ~Cat Stevens "Its suppossed to be hard; if it wasn't, everyone would do it: it's the hard that makes it great." ~A League of Their Own "No, the opposite of love is indifference." "I have great faith in fools-- my friends call it self-confidence." ~Edgar Allen Poe "As long as you laugh at yourself you will never cease to be amused." "Beware the fury of a patient man" ~John Dryen "When they discover the center of the Universe, a lot of people will be dissapointed to discover they aren't it." "To be nobody but yourself in a world that is doing it's best to make you somebody else, is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting." ~E.E. Cummings "The reasonable man adapts himself to the world; the unreasonable one persists in trying to adapt the world to himself. Therefore, all progress depends on the unreasonable man." ~George Bernard Shaw "Always another wonder to ponder." ~Winnie the Pooh "Music is not the technique and melody, but the meaning of life itself, infinitely sorrowful and unbearably beautiful." ~Pearl S. Buck "Evil has only the power we give it." ~Ray Bradbury "Yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run there is still time to change the one you are on." ~Led Zeppelin "There are things known and things unknown and in between are The Doors." ~Jim Morrison "Do or do not, there is no try." ~Yoda "Say goodbye to the oldies but goodies, cause the good old days aren't always good, and tomorrow aint as bad as it seems." ~Billy Joel "I need no warrant for being and no word of sanction upon my being. I am the warrant and the sanction." ~Ayn Rand |
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2 - 3 - 4 - 5 - read Sex, Drugs, and Cocoa Puffs 6 - 7 - 8 - have crazy sex 9 - 10 - kill amy 11 - 12 - learn circular knitting 13 - knit Kelly's scarf 14 - read Perk of Being A Wallflower 15 - 16 - read The Dragon Reborn 17 - 18 - "Peace isn't achieved through violence" ~Albert Einstein "If the sun comes up tomorrow, it is only because of men of good will. That is all there is between us and the Devil" ~Kenny O'Donnell "Let us celebrate by adding chocolate to milk." ~Homer Simpson "Life moves pretty fast, if you don't stop and look around once in a while, you may miss it." ~Ferris Bueller "There are plenty more fish in the sea... But you must go a long, long way to find an angel fish." ~Salmon Rushdie, Haroun and the Sea of Stories "Living in the sunlight all the time, they wish to see the stars." ~Salmon Rushdie, Haroun and the Sea of Stories "This is your life and it's ending one minute at a time." ~Fight Club "For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin --- real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way. Something to be got through first, some unfinished business, time still to be seved, a debt to be payed. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life." ~Fr. Alfred D'Souza "I have to go to college --- Why?!?!? ---- Because that's what you do after high school!" ~Orange County "Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn." ~Rhett Butler Gone With the Wind "Hey, how come he gets to get up? If he gets up, we'll all get up, it'll be anarchy!" ~Bender The Breakfast Club "Know theyself? If I knew myself I'd run away." ~Johann Wolfgang con Goethe "A friend is someone who knows all about you and likes you just the same." "It's never too late to be what you might have been." "Sharing a life is sharing steps in time, the music is different to each of us, but how beautiful the dance." "You say you want a revolution, well you know, we all want to change the world." ~The Beatles Alien: You're an interesting species, and interesting mix. You're capable of such beautiful dreams, and such horrible nightmares. You feel so lost, so cut off, so alone, only you're not. See, in all our searching, the only think we've found that makes the emptiness bearable is each other. "Sweet memories are woven from good times." "I'll lean on you, and you'll lean on me, and we'll be okay." ~Dave Matthews Band "I will remember you, will you remember me? Don't let you're life pass you by, weep not for the memories." ~Sarah McLachlan "Who's more foolish, the fool or the fool who follows him?" ~Star Wars, ObiWan "Dreams are true while they last, and do we not live in our dreams?" ~Alfred Lord Tennyson "Things do not change, we change." ~Thoreau "It would be an awful waste of space if there weren't other forms of life." ~Cookiemonster "After all there is but one race: humanity." ~George Moore "For long you live and high you fly, and smiles you'll give and tears you'll cry, and all you touch and all you see, is all your life will ever be." ~Pink Floyd "We are agreed your ideas are crazy. What we have yet to determine is if your ideas are crazy enough to be true." "I could die for you. But I couldn't and wouldn't live for you." ~Howard Roark, The Fountainhead "The greatest man I never knew, lived just down the hall." ~Reba McEntire |
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I'm blowing the day to take a walk in the sun
And fall on my face on somebody's new-mown lawn |
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Sunday, March 30, 2003 + + + Tuesday, March 25, 2003 + + + Friday, March 21, 2003 The war. Brad. Wow. Brad's fighting this war. Brad, my brother, is holding a gun on the battlelines. He's killing other soliders. Other humans. Someone else's brother, some mother's son. My brother, the boy I grew up with, the guy who built the fort in the woods with me, who made me laugh the first time I had my heart broken, my brother, Brad, is going to kill other people. This isn't a war anymore, this isn't one country fighting another -- this is Brad, with a gun, killing other human beings. This is one man killing another. I don't care what cause it's for, I'm not even saying the cause is wrong -- but it's still killing a human being. What's the world come to that my brother -- the goofy guy who wore a hot pink suit to prom -- my brother has become a killer. How is this allowed?? Why is it required? Don't say it's a war, it's more than that, it's personal. I know a man on that battlefield. He's my brother, and he's a killer. Every other solider is someone's son. Maybe their Joe, or John. Each of them has a story, each of them has a family. They could be another goofy guy, and intellectual, a film-maker, a singer, a writer, an artist. They aren't an enemy, they aren't just soliders. They are people. This is people killing people. My brother has become another animal of war, killing others for a cause he doesn't understand, isn't allowed to understand, because it would "threaten national security." He doesn't understand, he's just following orders. How could someone just follow orders to kill another human being. I don't know if I could ever do that, no matter how justified it seemed. No cause is worth becoming a killer, and taking someone elses life. No cause is worth becoming an animal relying on brute force to win. Why is it this is what our government does? Why is this what my brother does? Why do so many people do this? Go along with something they don't understand. Become killers over something they don't understand. What have we allowed the world to become that this is exected and accepted?
I wore a black band today. I don't support this war. My brother is fighting this war, but I still don't support it. I wear this band wishing for peace, mourning for those who have been killed, those who have killed, and those who have allowed this killing. Black. This world has become black. We've forgotten what peace means in order to be more prosperous, have more oil, have more power. I'm not saying this just about the United States. The whole world has become like this. The fact that Sadaam Hussein was ever allowed to gain power is proof. The solution is not to make the problem larger. Violence does not solve violence. Killing does not solve killing. Especially when the reasons are those of greed. Stop being greedy, stop expecting to have the best, the most, of everything. Accept what you have, accept others as they are, and maybe these problems would never exist in the first place. I wear this band today mourning the fact that the world has become such a place that my brother would become a killer. + + + Monday, March 17, 2003 + + + Wow. That parents moving thing just kind of hit me. It's crazy to think Alpharetta won't be my home anymore -- I've lived here so long I can't comprehend that. Like even if I had gone to college out of state, this would still be my home. I'd still come back here on breaks, still see old friends, still visit Milton. Now most of that is gone. My parents will be in Colorado -- but that won't be a home. I almost feel like I'll have no home. College isn't that -- college is a place to have fun and go to school, but it's not a home. There's nothing I can do about it, but it just feels.... weird. Like I'm left hanging -- there is no stable place to take refuge anymore when it all becomes too much to handle. + + + Saturday, March 15, 2003 + + + Monday, March 10, 2003 + + + Thursday, March 06, 2003 + + + Tuesday, March 04, 2003 Anyway, lifes good right about now. There's so much I should be stressed about or pissed about. My UGA app. getting all screwed up, me failing personal fitness, fighting with my parents. I almost feel like I'm at the point where I just don't care about any of it. I know I should. Especially personal fitness. But I just don't care. I'm much happier reading a book I want and hanging out with friends. I always told myself happiness comes first, and maybe I'm taking that a bit too far right now, but I don't care. I'm gonna have a good time while I can. Life's just good. Also, everyone should go here. I know it's a religious thing, but that's not the important thing. Look at the pictures, I was awed. They're just so gorgeous. And if I can deal with the fact that it's a religious thing any of you can. So go look. + + + |
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And you can be sure that if you're feeling right A daydream will last long into the night |